High spirited

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04.13.09

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Lately I’ve been quite productive. I’ve written blogs and articles all over the place. I’ve started others and am quite happy with the progress thus far. I’ve done a couple of paintings which is so unlike me. I’ve found more inspiration for my featured photos on various blogs. And I’ve spent a lot more time with the girls than usual.

I’m not sure what it is exactly.

The weather was nice for a while, so that could be a part of it. The girls and I have been able to get out of the house, including a trip to the playground up the road. And another to downtown Seattle. Both with ams. These trips were loaded with carefree playing, which ams and I took part in. We even caught an unexpected clown show!

The makeshift drum set was the best part.

I’ve also made some healthy changes, like drinking more water and cutting back on the fried foods. We’ve been cooking at home a lot more and things we normally fry, we’ve been cooking in the oven instead. Fruits and vegetables are making more regular appearances in the girls’ and my meals.

Yelling at Kittr has even diminished tremendously and we’ve been getting along. While sitting on the couch next to him, he’d cuddle up next to me and rub against my thigh while I pet him. He stopped biting me and I’ve done nothing but spoil him. It’s like we’re both feeling good about everything right now.

Maybe it’s because I’ve decided to care less about everyone else and more about my children, hubs, and myself. It’s not that I don’t care about others, just not willing to stress over the fact that I can’t help them with their problems when they’re not doing anything to make changes themselves. I still worry, but only for those who can’t do anything. Or those that are trying to make positive changes, but are still struggling.

I’ve already written about how I’m quitting some things that have only brought me down. I wish I could give up the negative people in my life, but that will prove to be a difficult task with consequences that will just bring me down again. I just don’t know how to tell them to either chill out or leave me alone. So for now I’ll just stop listening.

I know it sounds bad, but I need this. My children need this. My marriage needs this.

Whatever it is that’s boosting my spirit, I hope it continues. My mood has been better and I don’t want that to end. I’m tired of being cranky. I want to be happier. Not just for myself, but for those around me. Especially my girls. They need their mama to be happier. Sane.

Wish me luck.